From what you have described, it is certainly possible that you have an eating disorder or are at risk for developing an eating disorder, however, TeenHealthFX cannot make any definitive diagnoses over the web – only a mental health professional can do that after meeting with you for a consultation. What is clear from what you have written is that food and weight is becoming more and more of a preoccupation for you and that it is affecting your emotional well-being (in terms of your saying you are feeling more “depressed”). That said, FX thinks it is important for you to meet with a mental health professional so that you can find out if you meet the criteria for having an eating disorder, or are at risk for developing one, and so that you can get help in finding a way to better manage your thoughts, feelings, and behaviors when it comes to food so you do not feel so depressed and negatively affected by it.
If you live in northern New Jersey and need help finding a therapist you can call the Access Center from Atlantic Behavioral Health at 888-247-1400. Outside of this area you can log onto the US Department of Health and Human Services Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration website for referrals in your area. You can also contact your insurance company to get a list of in-network mental health providers or check with your school social worker or psychologist to get a list of referrals in your area.