Using the term “take me to a mental hospital,” sounds ominous and punitive and your mom probably responded this way because she was scared. Cutting is something that responds to treatment. You are not cutting because you are being bad and therefore giving a consequence doesn’t make sense. It is important that you receive therapy to help you learn better coping mechanism and what underlying issues contribute to your compulsion to cut.
You should tell your mom that you have started cutting again. Unless your cutting behavior is causing significant wounds or your goal is to end your life, it is much more likely that you would be treated on an outpatient basis rather than admitted to a hospital. Even if you met criteria to be admitted to a hospital, these settings are designed to be therapeutic and have nothing in common with the way they are often portrayed in movies. Hospitalizations are used to keep a person safe or when intensive therapy is needed.
TeenHealthFX has a whole section on cutting and you can use it to educate your mother and yourself about the disorder. Once your mother has a better understanding of what you are going through she can get the ball rolling on getting you the proper help. The reality is that sooner or later she is going to learn that the cutting behavior has returned. Why waste the time struggling when you could be getting help?
If you get to the point that you are considering suicide or are afraid of your impulses then you need to seek help immediately. You can call 9-1-1 or go to your nearest hospital emergency room. In northern New Jersey you can also call the crisis hotline from Morristown Medical Center at 973-540-0100. Outside this area call the Suicide & Crisis Hotline, 1-800-999-9999, 24 hours, 7 days a week.
If you live in northern New Jersey and need help finding a therapist you can call the Access Center from Atlantic Behavioral Health at 888-247-1400. Outside of this area you can log onto the US Department of Health and Human Services Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration website for referrals in your area. You can also contact your insurance company to get a list of in-network mental health providers or check with your school social worker or psychologist to get a list of referrals in your area.
You can also contact the Self-Injury Hotline (information only, not a crisis line) at 1-800-DON’T-CUT, 1-800-366-8288