I am 14. Around 2 years ago my dad lost his job. My dad was around 300 pounds and after he lost his job we both started working out together. We formed a strong bond and I think of that time we had as the best time of my life. Of course my dad found a new job and he had to move away to another state for a while, as me and my mother and siblings were trying to sell our house. Eventually we did and moved with my dad. A few months after my dad lost his job once more. I wasn't worried because I trust my dad with all my heart. He had to move to another job and leave my family here. During the past year since he lost his job the second time, I have been having bad emotional problems. I am moody and grouchy and rarely ever sleep. When I get upset or distraught I find myself poking sharp objects into my arms and liking the feeling of physical pain I get. I am also rather lonely as I am home schooled and the only interaction I have is with two online friends who I cherish. I also have feelings of rage towards my younger siblings. I never hurt them but I do yell a lot at them. I try not to be mean but my comments to my mother and siblings are bitter. I also have a very bad self esteem. And as I have been reading over your site I hear that is natural in my point of adolescence. Recently I spoke of my feelings towards my parents. Hoping that would help. But to me it doesn’t seem like our understanding of each other has improved and my dad cannot really help if he is 1000 miles away. I'm under a lot of stress with trying to keep my grades up but failing because I don't sleep for up to 10 days at a time. I am under stress because we are moving once more and my dad is gone and I feel my mother does not understand me at all. So really there are several problems. And I tried to make them understandable but I will write my problems here just in case they were not. I am overly stressed out on a variety of things. And I don’t want to be anymore. I feel alone and hated.
TeenHealthFX can definitely appreciate the stress of your current situation. To be constantly moving, to be home-schooled and feeling like you are getting enough social interactions with peers, to have the stress of a parent being in and out of work, and to feel misunderstood by your parents about what you are going through are all very tough situations to be in. FX is glad that you took the initiative to talk to your parents about how you are feeling, and has some other thoughts about things that you might find helpful to you in this situation:
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If you need immediate assistance, you can also contact the Youth Crisis Hotline, 1-800-448-4663, 24 hours, 7 days a week – this hotline is for people 17 years of age or younger who are in crisis.