It does not sound to TeenHealthFX like you are dealing with OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) or with a “typical teenage problem” that will simply fade with time. However, it does sound like you are dealing with issues around self-esteem, peer relationships (in terms of being “made fun of constantly at school”), your relationship with your mother (in terms of how these issue are being handled between the two of you), and how much you are able to cope with these feelings and situations in an effective and healthy way. It certainly seems like you are experiencing significant distress over this, so FX does think that it is important for you to seek out someone to talk to about it.
FX thinks it would be helpful for you to have a consultation with a trained mental health professional. A therapist can assess what is contributing to these thoughts and feelings, can give you an accurate diagnosis of the situation, and can work with you to develop an effective treatment plan. FX thinks it would be helpful for you to have some time on your own with your therapist to discuss these issues, but we also think some time with your mother would be helpful so that your mother can better understand what you are going through and how to best be helpful to you.
You can speak to your mother and ask her to set up a consultation with a therapist for you, or you could speak to a school counselor about the situation and get him/her to intervene on your behalf to ensure you get the help you need.
If you live in northern New Jersey and need help finding a therapist you can call the Access Center from Atlantic Behavioral Health at 888-247-1400. Outside of this area you can log onto the US Department of Health and Human Services Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration website for referrals in your area. You can also contact your insurance company to get a list of in-network mental health providers or check with your school social worker or psychologist to get a list of referrals in your area.