Suicide / Question
Published: August 12, 2005
Dear TeenHealthFX,
I've gotten so down lately that i dont even know what "happy" feels like anymore. i have not a soul on this cold lonley earth to talk to. i hate my life and i also hate my parents my dad is a huge ass he calls me stupid retarded dumb even calls me a worthless bastard sometimes. now how am i s'post to turn to my parents when they call me things like that? its never gunna happen i fail in school i hate what i look like there is no reason why i should be alive i mean im not worth life i think about suidice all the time and if things dont get better i'll do it the day before school starts back up.
Signed: There Is No Reason I Should Be Alive
Dear There Is No Reason I Should Be Alive,
Regardless of what your father says, TeenHealthFX wants you to realize that you are a worthwhile person and deserve to be happy in your life. It is hard to understand why a parent would say such hurtful things to a child. Perhaps your father thinks that it is a way to motivate you, but obviously it is having disastrous affects on your self-esteem.
Compounding your feelings of worthlessness is that you are feeling so lonely and isolated. TeenHealthFX assures you that there are people out there who care about you as a person and would be devastated if you ended your life without giving them the opportunity to help. If you don’t feel that your parent’s are sensitive to your needs then try a friend, relative, neighbor, or someone from your school. Feeling trapped inside your head with all these negative thoughts must be hard for you. By opening up to another person you have taken the first step to helping you feel better.
Since these problems are so overwhelming, seeing a mental health professional would be critical. Family therapy would be crucial since the problem does not solely lie within you. Someone needs to make your parent aware that his or her behavior is so demoralizing to you that you are contemplating taking your life.
TeenHealthFX encourages you in the strongest way possible to get help right away. Suicide is an act of desperation to a problem that has a solution. Unfortunately, you are hurting so much right now that you cannot see the solution, but it is there.
To get help right away you can call 911 or go to your nearest hospital emergency room. In northern New Jersey you can also call the crisis hotline from Morristown Memorial hospital at 973-540-0100. Outside this area call the Suicide & Crisis Hotline, 1-800-999-9999, 24 hours, 7 days a week
If you live in northern New Jersey and need help finding a therapist you can call the Access Center from Atlantic Behavioral Health at 973-247-1400. Outside of this area you can log onto the US Department of Health and Human Services Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration website for referrals in your area.
Signed: TeenHealthFX
