Suicide / Question
Published: May 4, 2009
Dear TeenHealthFX,
What to do? im not sure what should i do.. all i have is sad memories of my life.. whenever i think about any time of mu life i cry.. from the 1st memory i have until i was 10.. all i can remeber is my father hurting my mom or my older brother fighting with father and mom aswell.. then later all i can remeber from 10-16 is in school getting bullied by the class and in home after my father moved away was constant fights with my mom and older brother, and several times going to hospital because my mom started drinking until she passed out and the police calls so we pick her up, later she started having some mental illness... and at 16 i 1st slit my wrists.. not sure how i managed to do it that time.. i was in extreme despair.. and for like 1 month the family looked united thx to me =/.. but it resumed to the crap life later.. getting bullied in school and get home to find my mom driking or already passed out.. not to mention that my mom already tried to kill herself with sleep pills (diazepan).. also my brother later tried the same.. but he dissolved the like 200 pills in water and took it.. he stayed in a coma state for like 2 weeks.. and now at age 18.. a few months ago my mom died in accident.. my brother moved away.. i dont even know where my father is right now.. im now living with the insurence money and working in crap job (guess what.. because i dont know how to talk to people im even bullied at job).. what a life huh? now i ask you is it really worth to continue living? whats the point in it? im right now really hoping for any miracle or something to happen (i dont have the courage or strenght to try to change :( ) otherwise i ll just be another number in the suicide statistcs of my city.. i suppose i ll register myself to be a donor so someone else may use better any part of my body.. oh well just saying anything here since i have noone to talk to.. prolly this message wont even be read.. just another data on this website database or some1 else email.. what a crap world huh.. :(
Signed: Sad Memories Of My Life
Dear Sad Memories Of My Life,
TeenHealthFX is very sorry to hear that you have had to deal with so many painful things in your life. We can understand that you must have a significant amount of sadness and anger about all that you have been through – however, we do feel that it is in your power and control to create a life for yourself that you feel is worth living. We have no say in the families we are born into, and we all will deal in our lives with circumstances we would rather not have to endure. We have no choice in some of the things that will happen to us – but we do have a choice in how we want to deal with the things that come our way.
To start working on making this change, FX thinks that it is important for you to meet with a mental health professional. Clearly there is a lot of pain, hurt, sadness, and anger to work through – and it would also be very important for you to have an adult in your life who can be there for you with positive guidance and support. There are people out there who do care and want to be caring towards others – FX hopes you will work towards forming connections with such people so that you can feel better about your life and have a greater sense of hope about your future.
There are a lot of crappy things that go on in this world. But there are also a lot of people who work very hard at combating those things in order to make the world a better place. As you move on through life, keep this quote in mind: “You must be the change you wish to see in this world.” – Mahatma Ghandi
If you live in northern
If you get to the point that you are seriously considering suicide or are afraid of your impulses then you need to seek help immediately. You can call 911 or go to your nearest hospital emergency room. In northern
Signed: TeenHealthFX
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