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Nothing Left On This Earth For Me - I Want To Die

Published: May 14, 2012
Dear TeenHealthFX,
I want to die. I have spurts of depression, but even when im not depressed i still want to die. I literally have nothing left on this earth for me. Its all gone. ALL GONE. Nothing. So I want do die. I just plane ol' dont want to be here.
Signed: Nothing Left On This Earth For Me - I Want To Die

Dear Nothing Left On This Earth For Me - I Want To Die,


TeenHealthFX appreciates how terrible it is to feel like there is nothing left to live for – we understand that it is hard for words to even describe how awful those emotions can be. While we get that there is a part of you that is feeling done with life, the fact that you wrote into us leaves us wondering if there is a part of you that is really not ready to end things. You stated that you have “nothing” left, but FX wonders if you are still hoping for something since you wrote into us – perhaps hoping for some compassion, care, and sympathy about what you are going through.

FX thinks that it is important for you to do two things here. The first is to talk with a trusted adult about how you are feeling. Whether you speak with a parent/guardian, an extended family member, a school counselor, a private therapist, or whomever else – it is really important that you have a trusted, caring adult who can give you some support, comfort, and guidance. The second is to meet with a mental health professional so that your depression can be assessed. Depression can often feel like a roller coaster – with emotions and coming and going – and left untreated it can affect you in many ways, including contributing to suicidal ideation. It is important that you receive treatment from a trained professional for your depression, and that a therapist work with you on ensuring that you have a good support system in your life.

FX understands that it feels right now like there is nothing left to live for, but FX wants to assure you that there are good people in this world and good things in this world worth living for. It may take some time and work for you to get to a place where you can really feel that, but it can happen. So please reach out to some trusted adults for help so that you can get the mental health treatment you need, as well as the compassion and comfort you need given the extraordinarily difficult time you are going through.

If you live in northern New Jersey and need help finding a therapist you can call the Access Center from Atlantic Behavioral Health at 888-247-1400. Outside of this area you can log onto the US Department of Health and Human Services Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration website for referrals in your area. You can also contact your insurance company to get a list of in-network mental health providers or check with your school social worker or psychologist to get a list of referrals in your area.

If you get to the point that you are seriously considering suicide or are afraid of your impulses then you need to seek help immediately. You can call 911 or go to your nearest hospital emergency room. In northern New Jersey you can also call the crisis hotline from Morristown Memorial hospital at 973-540-0100. Outside this area call the Suicide & Crisis Hotline, 1-800-999-9999, 24 hours, 7 days a week.

Signed: TeenHealthFX