I Feel Like I Am Walking Underwater
TeenHealthFX is sorry to hear of your current situation. Unfortunately, we cannot diagnose over the internet and recommend you talk to your parents or another trusted adult, so they can help you get professional help as soon as possible.
If you live in northern New Jersey and need help finding a health professional, you can call the Access Center from Atlantic Behavioral Health at 888-247-1400. Outside of this area, a valuable resource is the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Service Administration (SAMHSA) which is an agency of the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services.
If you are considering hurting yourself or others, you must seek help immediately. Call 911 or go to the nearest hospital emergency room. The Northern New Jersey crisis hotline from Morristown Medical Center is 973-540-0100. Outside of this area call the Suicide Hotline: 1-800-273-8255 or Text "Home" to 741741. All mentioned options are open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.